My head keeps spinning . The moment i can't solve one problem, my head will start twirling D;
This is so fustrating. These 2 weeks will be hard to get by, but i think i'll still be able to pull through in one piece (: Many things are happening/happened and all these things made me think was everything worthwhile?
&my inner self told me it wasn't. I've wasted so much. But it's a little too late to realise.

OH GOODNESS! DO I LOOK LIKE I'M 50KG!????!!!! AN ABSOLUTE NO RIGHT?!!!!
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Was suppose to study, but was chased away by the Mac person. Changed venue & we started playing. K,take this as my stress relief day. (:
& I'm damn hungry now!!!

I think i need to see a phycologist. No, maybe that won't even help.
I'm TIRED. But i can't bring myself to sleep cause I'll feel guilty for not studying.
Parents just ask me to do my best,don't have to stress out.
BUT, i can't help feeling stressed. My math! My POA! All my subjects is like so-so only. HOW!?

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The stress is overwhelming! I can't take it any longer.
I want to give up, yet I can't bring myself to. It's like I'm strandled & trying to struggle my way out.
In this point, if i chose to give up than everything will be called waste.
I don't like thinking of the disppointment faces of parents&myself.
I don't want people to look down on me ESP __________!!!
BUT, When I open my Physics/Math/POA , I'm stucked & my head will start spinning.
I hate myself for being so whiney about this!
I hate myself for being happy a day & sad the next.
I hate myself for being stressed over small small things.
. Oh gosh, when can i ever leave this situation?
& I'm such a Great Procastinator D;
Maybe, this time it's really too late.

I've got to constantly remind myself not to be demoralised by my current results.
I'm looking forward to go to all the makan places in S'pore with my 2 mates. (:
I'm looking forward to meet up with my JJAM!
I'm looking forward to playing M-J & hanging out with the usuals.
I'm looking forward to so many things in life, so no matter what, i must hang on .

I'm tired of trying to keep up with all these fucked up nonsensical stuffs. EVERYTHING k.
Fucked up, cried my heart out today & i guess it's better. Anyway the world won't stop even if I'm sad, so I've got to stand Strong by myself (: & I believe that I can .

OUCH! I just closed my room door with my fingers there D: occupied mind cause accidents man!
skipped school today cause i was tired. Study session was SUCCESSFUL! Eve's coming over tomorrow . I haven't got to try the new Yogurt store at WS, should ask her along tml.
My house's refrigerator is filled with boxes of mooncakes & i'm damn happy to see it :D:D:D
Sat goanna celebrate with the usuals (:
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K, my prelim results is like shitxzxzxz. Maybe nurse is a future me. I don't know if thinking like this is a positive/negative thought?!
POA tutotial tml, so i needa catch some sleep alr. NIGHT!