Blog is so boring cause there's no pictures right? But i'm lazy to plug my camera into the computer,so yeah. ):
My mood goes on&off, awhile i feel damn motivated,awhile damn slack. I don't know what's wrong with me man! Now, when i look at my results I realised i'm a failure. I studied last minute &stuffs. Now i'm regretting. & i wonder if it's too late to start mugging now D:
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Everyone comes to this place with a mission to complete,maybe mine's just something else from what i wished it would(?)
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My pimples are coming out all over my forehead):

In the morning was like having breakfast with family & i told them, if i cannot go to the course i want, i'll go & study nursing. Than mummy was like : You sure you can?! Pour shit & all lei! But you will become damn loving.
LOLS! But sis said nursing can go UK/US cause they need nurse :D K, so nursing isn't a bad alternative afterall :D K, i've thought of many possibilities & alternative routes for me to take. So there won't come to a point i'll face a dead end :D I'mloving myself for this(:(:(:

Got this from facebook;
Life Path Number 5: The WindThose born under a Life Path Number 5 are as hard to catch, and as freedom-loving as the wind itself.Naturally changeable and versatile, you thrive on all things new and different. Just like the wind, if anyone tries to capture you, you will die. This is not cruelty - although the broken hearts you leave behind you might argue - it is simply your nature.The love of freedom for a Life Path Number 5 exists on all levels: Intellectually, you have an eclectic array of interests, although you may not have a deep knowledge of any one thing. Emotionally, you will love many people, and move on just as quickly. This is not to say you will be an unfaithful love partner, only that your ideal mate will need to understand that you may not be home for dinner if you have decided to catch a last minute flight to Timbuktu for a month or so. Spiritually, you are intrigued by religion and are probably knowledgeable about many of them, but prefer to develop your own brand of spirituality rather than be tied to any one dogma.This constant changing is not, as some people think, an attempt to run away from the things you don't like about yourself. In fact, it is just the opposite: You are always looking for ways to improve things, including yourself. In your own way you are chasing, and contributing to, the perfect world. Being so open to new experiences make you very compassionate. You feel other people's pain deeply and are quick to draw upon your vast resources to help whenever you can. In true Number 5 style though, you don't like to be shown a lot of gratitude and will often help anonymously when you can. Thanks and gratitude just take up too much time!Occasionally a Life Path Number 5 will suffer from a permanent feeing of restlessness and discomfort. This is usually when he or she is trying to fit a role that goes against their nature. If you feel this way, perhaps you need to stop feeling guilty for being a free spirit. It is not in everyone's nature to live in the same neighbourhood for their whole life or stay in the same job forever. Give yourself permission to embrace the freedom you so badly need. A Life Path Number 5 is truly the wind of change.
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Doesn't sound really true in someparts,but some are so similar to my characteristics.
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k,my voice is damn sexy now!Coughed like a dog. But many people are coughing with me alr.
Tuition later.TIRED.

Talk about giving up a dream D;

I've thought about it. 8 points is really hard to get. Maybe i should be more realistic.
Buisness is my dream, but in reality, what i'm capable of, is only this little.
Maybe this will just be a dream for me, cause i've come to terms that, i should have a back-up plan cause i'm not confident anymore. What i want might not be what i will get right?
Also,sought my thinkings out, at the worse, i think i shall get a nursing course.
Although it isn't my passion, but ...
NVM, i don't know how to explain. I'm sad now. REALLY,cause the smile isn't there anymore.
I'M REALLY TIRED . I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS EXAMS. I'M DRAINED. & I DON'T LIKE ALL THIS AT ALL DDDDDD;

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20.09.2009. No wonder so many people getting married.

.Church & tuition was canceled as tutor just recovered & dad thinks it's better that i don't go. So came home after having lunch at grandma's. Tomorrow's holiday, but it looks like it's goanna be an endless night for me.

I.AM.SERIOUSLY.FUSTRATED.WITH.MYSELF. Thinking about many stuffs, reflecting & I'm angry/hating myself for whatever reason. Pissed.

It's just so amazing when you see people changing so fast.
I think my definition is wrong.

HANG on for awhile more Joycelyn!
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K, I'm down with fucking diarrhoea this morning, & i think it's because of the food that i cooked. The chicken i toasted was NOT COOKED & i ate like what. Now I'm in pain. But thank God, When i was in school, my tummy was OK. Than the moment i come home, Toilet!
&My throat is Very Very Very pain now D; It hurts even when i swallow my saliva, hopefully will be all right later on.
K, gotta rush. I need a nap!!!
& I LOVE MYSPACE :D

Amath was...., IDK what to comment. I left a 10 mark Question blank. K, don't mention it anymore.
Homed&Napped & out to Changi Airpot.
Laughed till my stomach damn pain. The G.A.Y.S. HAHHAHAHHS!
WS to play cards & homed.

Today's GRANDPARENTS DAY! (:
I canceled my English tuition again cause I'm tired. K, was doing some facebook application & this!
"Fortune Teller GeniusQuestion: Can i score 8 points for my O levels?Answer: Of course! "
HAHAHAHAS! Thanks , It's a boost for me :D:D:D K, i need to nap before i look at my Emath stuffs, I think I've a fear for emath now. I don't even dare to touch the paper. D:
It was once my favourite subject D:

My eyes are fucking dry, to the max & i can't keep myself awake any longer. But if i go to sleep , I'll feel guilty cause i've not yet accomplished anything. Emath is on monday but i'm not digging the papers that i need to study?! I still have the cheek to play majiong just now.
I'm still at unit 8.5 of physics. No progress. Move Joycelyn MOVE!!!!!\
k, i need to run , finish till unit 9 & i'm goanna sleep. Church,English tuition & clear my doubts tml .! NIGHTSSSSS. FLOOD ALL MY LOVE IN. (:

I've photos to share, but blogger doesn't allow. So too bad.
Managed to serious study. Met up with 4 peeps at like 5p.m? Studies at home first cause i go there i know i can't concentrate. Just acia for dinner & it was awesome. Damn full. Played finger-guessing game, Loser drinks one ladle of our mixed mixture. Damn gross, the picture!!! But the taste was all-right. Home afterwhich. My physics is nowhere! Everything is nowhere & My O's is drawing nearer & nearer? I doubt myself at times if i can do it, But i want t hold on to my faith that i can. It's hard. What i'm going through, No one understands cause i sometimes also don't no what i want. Fuck.
Goanna go&try for the pencil case i want again tomorrow after tuition. &I WANT TO LOVE A MATH. But integration is alr driving me to the max . i can't take it . I want to get these papers done & BYE.

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Study room is in a ver very big mess now! HOW? I can't find my things & i start digging for all the paper all around the room, & now i don't know how to start packing. I feel so dead now. I Don't know how to integrate the sin/cos stuffs. HOW?! Physics is still at unit 8. It's 1/2 of the whole Textbook & i aim to finish it by the 14th. Which means, i need to work through the night again today. K, i gotta prepare for tuition alr.

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Catch me, cause i'm falling.

Today's 090909. Was watching news with sister & we came across this, many are getting married on this date. & sis was like:'This's so ironic. Chinese people don't get married during the period of 'hungry ghost festival' yet so many are doing it just because it's 090909.'
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K, 2nd day & the pain comes and goes. Rolled for 2 hours today. & I'm good now :D Math tutor wants SOS tuition tomorrow so i have to cancel tonights tuition to complete my math. But i'm nowhere there yet. I'm stuck with Physics. The Textbook is just so interesting that i can't bring myself to close it. I'm serious! Read your textbooks. :D I'm into NEWTON'S LAW. It's amazing that such people do exist.
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Holidays are ending soon & i'm left with like 48days i think? NERVOUS, But i hope it'll all end earlier. I won't have time to complete my TYS, So i decided to just do the asscessments tutor gave. As for E-math , i need to clear my Standard Deviation, SETS & 1 more topic. I'm loving A-math cause everyone's giving up .
I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT. More than you know :D:D:D
SHOPPING ON FRIDAY !!!!:D:D:D:D:D: LIKE FINALLY. But i think i'll feel guilty cause i'm suppose to study & not start indulging myself D; However, I'm a human afterall, so i need to splurge on myself (: GOANNA BE AS HARDWORKING AS ALEX EVANS! AS PLAYFUL AS HIM & AT THE RIGHT TIME :)

PAIN PAIN PAINNNNNNNNN!!!
I'm screaming in pain now!!!!! Cramp to th max. the pain sent me rolling on my bed for hours crying. & worse of worse i drank cold drinks when i'm already in pain so this led to even more pain. & now. I'm goanna continue rolling.
But the pain has woken me up. My senses are very very very clear now. I'm still looking forward to my near future, where i'll get to study in Australia :D:D:D I CAN DO IT & I WANT IT BADLY. ):

Did some serious math today & I'm loving myself.
Eating like nobody these days. Fast foods & all. I think i'be gained weight but i'm goanna lie to myself.
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Was watching news&came across this, some secondary students thought by jumping down the building they will be able to re-born & have some superpowers. They watch too much TV shows alr. But what's unbelieveable is that they are actually physically 16year-old teen lei!!!
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There's school tomorrow.-. than MOVIE :D:D:D

I FEEL SO MOTIVATED TODAY :D
Jogging plan failed cause everyone did not wake up on time. So woke up & did math. A-math takes up alot of time man! 3questions & 45minutes is gone. GONE LIKE THE WIND.
I think i'm goanna pick myself up already. Last 50 days or so. I'm goanna go into my serious mode. No more distractions please. Play cards only when i'm seriouslt stress & need to distress. Not going to keep playing cause i still want to have my future. I'm still the one controlling my own fate. My future is what i'm goanna work for now. :D
k, I'm going out to study with the usuals soon. tata.

SS today was ok, cause i think i memorised most of it & as for healthcare,just use some thinking skills(:
Cards yesterday & i won. like after so many times finally got some LUCK.
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ALEXEVENS!!! HE MAKE MY HEART BEAT EVEN WHEN I JUST LOOK AT HIS PHOTO.

Today marks my start of mugging. Xueyin was nagging at me asking me to study.
Maybe i should go M-I-A for some time so that things would be better (:
ok, Now'a like 10 plus & i haven't memorise my Chemistry. Sleepy like shit now!
I think i'm having my puperty stage now. I get hungry easily & i keep eating as and when there's food near me HOW? I'm goanna be like a pig in no time.