Hi, it's been a long time since i was here, and i figure out that i should update and since i've got the mood to :) I'm going to L.A , California like in 2 weeks! (Y) Awesome~
I had the jab today, the doctor, fast game. I went in, Hi, so you're just here for the jab?
& than he just start to jab and done! like less than 5minutes. It hurts tiny weeeny bit though.
Exams are around the corner. I think I'm in the middle of no where. But i had fun studying with sissy at many different places. Had many good food too :)
till than, x.o.x.o

Just so you know, you irritate the fuck shit out of me. Stop being a copy-cat.

OUCH! VERYVERYPAINNNNNN! Can all this please just come to me at one go?! Don't give it to me one by one cause it hurts more than what i could take. ya,let me emo for one last time and i should be fine:)
I never knew that this fucking ache in my heart could just cause tears to come out. I just hurt everywhere and this just make me stop functioning. lagibest.

self-reminder;
If you don't want to get hurt further please stay away, if not the consequences would be unbearable.

Glad i found out myself, this make me feel so much less guilty towards you. :)
Although I don't know what to do now. I didn't know that it can hurt this much lor! SERIOUSLY. A.LOT. whatever, I'm going to shut myself for a period of time now. Hope it gets better soon:) Please be fast, because i'm losing it already. guys are really scary.fcuk ni lar.

I need a space to let me vent out all my sadness, so it's here.
I don't know whatcha want from me lei. This feeling suck. This is the kind of situation that i wanted to avoid from the start, yet now, I found myself trapped here. Contradicting.Amazing. Is this like karma or something?! seriously fuck. guess i won't be in this kind of situation for long because there's only 2 ways to resolve this right? either or. whatever. choose one & we're fine:)

Obviously in the past i understand nothing at all that's why i could put it so easily. I didn't know one small thing could hurt so fucking much! All i can say is that guys are amazing.

I may be young , but i do know what's right and what's wrong. Trust me, i do.
fml.

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Am watching 就想賴著妳 now & the story is making me so angry! How can he make use of her!!!? KNN!
K bai. Back to watch!

I feel that I'm living my life so aimlessly now.
Maybe it's time for a change.

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Best food at Grandma's place. (:

Eaten alot of things for the past few days & now I'm fasting. & I'm super duper hungry.

Made a trip down to see Jonas cause he was crying non-stop so mum called me.

Received a super big ang pao from dad's boss friend . Enough for my contact lens supply the next time round^^

Aunt is coming down from Australia on the 20th & another on the 25th.

Grandma's birthday(another feast) on the 28th. :D

I think i have a lost mail!!! ))): @%&#@*(@*#&!
Seriously. what's the person doing when delivering?! NBBBBBBBBB! %$%*^*%&&!!!
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iloveyourdimpleszxzxz(:

I still need more stuffs!
To ensure i will not nua, i've got my week planned ;D
Still thinking if i should go playgroup to visit cause Royce's going to move back to Malaysia soon ):
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youmakemegogagagagagasawyoutodayandi'msohighmanthefeelingisenoughtolastforveryverylong^^
happyhappyamicauseiknowyouknow,hahahahahahas!!!~~~

So excited for school to start! :D Can't wait. hahahahahahas~!
The people/place/everything sounds nice now. (:
WOOOHOOOOOOO^^

^^ I should go out tml to shop. Motivate me to get out of my house, if not i'll be nua-ing the whole day.
Had fun talking to peeps. so cute man all of them~!

Indecisive. ok i have a problem now.
How to check if RP's cert is recognised by companies?
Googled it & it seems bad. Should i just appeal for a nursing course in a better school?
But what if during that 3 years of mine, RP's standard improve a lot?
When i read those comments online, many say it's not a good school, than i wavered. I thought i decided to take it a bet alr , just get into that school(?) Than when i read those comments about RP saying:rubbish school,not focused,slack,only start learning impt things in the last year, certs are not so recognised,other polys will have a higher chance of employment next time , so on & so forth....
Now i don't know what to do already.

If I'm rich..... I'll be in London like * is already lah!!!

Republic poly, CIVIL AVIATION.
Many think that this isn't a good school,not so recognised. But why can't we just think on a brighter side. The main reason is because it's a new school! Do you think all other polys are 'good' schools when they just started off? No right. so we can't just judge a school like that right?
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From today , this very day, this very hour---second, Joycelyn will think positively for everything. My goal: think on the brightest side for everything. Than i'll be happy.
Many think that Republic is not a good school, but think of it the other way, it's just a new school that needs time to become better. It's still a school right?
It's a place that gives people like me who don't have good grades another chance right?
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we can't compare with others. There are many better off than me , but also, at the same time many worse off than me. So do not compare. It just come & go. You have this, you won't have that, you have that, you won't have this. goes around & comes around like this.
Joycelyn ah Joycelyn, don't have to be envious of others, cause somehow, this is the path I should take/ planned by GOD. Maybe I'll be better off not entering a business course. maybe i'm not the cut for it. so yah, accept it. ok.
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I feel so 'xiang tong' already.
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Cheryl! If my christmas tree guy still working text me ok!!! (: TYVM^^

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Postings are out tomorrow. Kinda look forward although i know i confirm can't get what i want. But somehow, it's still exciting .

I've been rotting at home these days. & i realised i need money$$$$$$.

But I'm lazy to go out of my house, it's way too comfortable already. hehehe.

oh, when i woke up this morning & went to the kitchen? &OMG!!! So many ants, & i started killing them. Splashed water everywhere, killed all of them. Irritating manszxzxzxx!

BORED X1000000000000000000 .

YAY^^ finally got time to go down to playgroup again(: got $$$$$$ heheheehehehee ! so happy!
Royce+Jonas=My love man! hehehe. they are so cuteee&handsome. nice to play with them ~~
Goanna go for fashion talk later in the evening, so i'm goanna take a nap soon. But gotta wait for mum to come home first cause she doesn't have any key)))))));

Nervous, first day of work tml & alone ): Oh my shit.
come to think back, on my first day at Robinsons, at least the manager would bring me to the place i'm suppose to go, people to teach me what to do.
& according to Evelyn now, on the first day, it sounds so scary can!
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Joycelyn be strong please.

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Look at this cute kid,Jonas ! He's so super duper adorable.

hehehe^^ Have been working there for the past 2 weeks. He would come to me & say, we see outside k?

than he start telling me a lot of stuffs. so cute ! he's not even 3 yet lor.

he will randomly talk like : papa's car blackblack one.

than when we look on the road, he gets so excited & said: there! papa's car like that,bigbig blackblack one.

Me:than jonas car big not?

Jonas: Joanas car small small.

hahahahs, so cute!

he can't say "S" properly, which makes him even cuter when he talk. hahahas ^^Love him ttm man.

If i were to have a child,hope will be like him man.cause he's damn adorable&lovable cause he would listen to instructions (: A good kid man!

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K, finished my job there cause it's 2 wks only, & i'm goanna start my F21 job on monday.

hahahahs. i need&want money.

my expenses are so high these days. so i've gotta work instead of nua at home. ^^

Demoralising

Let's see, all time hope gone , so yeah. Only allowed myself to cry today & no more for the rest of the days. manged to hold on , cried at home.
Dad&Mum was super sweet, they say it's ok cause i've done my best& as long as can go somewhere can alr.
Sister took her time to help me see which courses have better futures& cut of points nearer to me. She really flipped one by one to highlight for me & advice me. (:
&Really love people who stood by me with their sweet love,really appreciate it.
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Anyway, what's done , done . so no way back & of course retaking is never what i wanted so yeah. Should try and ask see overseas. shall talk to dad tomorrow. if not i will really just have to get into some random course& find love in it man.
Everything happen for a reason, & maybe that somehow i'm fated to be in some random courses that i'm goanna pick(?)We'll know when the time come. But anyway, i still see a glimpse of hope & kind of look forward to meet new people & start my life again.
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For those who loves to gloat about other's misfortunes, than u know what? I'm not goanna give a damn. to be honest, i can say that i'm sure i'll get affected, but maybe it's time for me to learn that i should not care about their perspective & just carry on with my life. So, if u're fucking happy (whoever) because i've got some fucking results, just laugh it off & get over it .
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*Cross fingers* hope i can get into the first choice of mine though it's damn unrealistic.
&seriously , from the bottom of my heart, i love people who just make me happy ^^ I mean really those kind that deep down i know you care, not those superficial people.

RESULTS TOMORROW.
Had a dream about O's last night.SCARY CAN!
Yesterday, had prata breakfast at Xinmin road there with parents. AWESOME~!
than to grandma's house for little cousin's birthday & majong^^
Today is out with sis, to Holland Village for Thai Express & facial. Money fly~~~
want money to come in lei!
Facial was hardcore pain. Squeeze all the pimples&blackheads. All the blood start coming out. This is the first time it was so pain can. Previous facials wasn't that pain.!
This one keep making me tear.

This pic is dark. but it's one of our favourites! (:

OMG! I get so excited easily these days.need to control man. ahahahahs!

Majong today like after so long.

&it's disastrous when kids start crying non-stop. Working in playgroup now. &OMG, there's some uber cute kids which are superly adorable.

&some, which are so uncontrollable, that the keep crying for their parents. Drive me crazy man, so just left them alone. hahahahas!

Used to want to have a lot of kids of my own, but now i have doubts. think too far alr~~~

HAPPYHAPPYNEWYEAR!(:

Countdown was all right at the beginning, until everyone gets high, it was uber fun! (: started buying sprays & spray. I was so damn sticky uh.

I just saw the photos sis had! I should have went with her yesterday!! All the champagnes , party mood! ^^ Her friend's proposal. Big diamond ring, 99roses!!! I SHOULD HAVE WENT!!!! )):

But anyway, i don't regret cause i had my share of fun yesterday(: