Demoralising

Let's see, all time hope gone , so yeah. Only allowed myself to cry today & no more for the rest of the days. manged to hold on , cried at home.
Dad&Mum was super sweet, they say it's ok cause i've done my best& as long as can go somewhere can alr.
Sister took her time to help me see which courses have better futures& cut of points nearer to me. She really flipped one by one to highlight for me & advice me. (:
&Really love people who stood by me with their sweet love,really appreciate it.
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Anyway, what's done , done . so no way back & of course retaking is never what i wanted so yeah. Should try and ask see overseas. shall talk to dad tomorrow. if not i will really just have to get into some random course& find love in it man.
Everything happen for a reason, & maybe that somehow i'm fated to be in some random courses that i'm goanna pick(?)We'll know when the time come. But anyway, i still see a glimpse of hope & kind of look forward to meet new people & start my life again.
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For those who loves to gloat about other's misfortunes, than u know what? I'm not goanna give a damn. to be honest, i can say that i'm sure i'll get affected, but maybe it's time for me to learn that i should not care about their perspective & just carry on with my life. So, if u're fucking happy (whoever) because i've got some fucking results, just laugh it off & get over it .
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*Cross fingers* hope i can get into the first choice of mine though it's damn unrealistic.
&seriously , from the bottom of my heart, i love people who just make me happy ^^ I mean really those kind that deep down i know you care, not those superficial people.